Becoming an author. You’d think this would be a time of celebration for me, but instead:
Self-induced pressure to be this “author” persona is quickly becoming more than I can bear. In telling my husband, he grounds me with the question – Just who do you think you’re supposed to portray or become now?
Perfectionism and a performance driven mentality are beginning to once again take away from the message I was called to spread. Further grounding comes when friends remind me I should read and apply this great book that just came out. The same words the Lord has spoken through me, God is wanting me to listen to.
I’m finding that I need more and more time away from my kids. They have this way of exhausting me and I’m finding myself wanting to stick my head in the sand because I can’t be and do all that they need. So, I focus more time and energy on ministry… because it’s easier. It gives me purpose while I continually hide from how hard family is and all the ways I let Team Michaud down.
There. I feel so much better! I’ve called the enemy out by exposing my fears.
Here’s a confession to you. It’s hard to say, but I need to hear it. Maybe you do too.
If I haven’t already let you down at some point, I will eventually.
The hard truth is we all will, because we are all human. But a simple shift in perspective will bring extraordinary peace and freedom in this statement because that is why Christ died. Oh, how we so easily forget.
God the Father loves us so much that he sent God the Son to fully cover our not good enough.
2 Corinthians 5:21 For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.
The struggle is real… but the Truth sets us free!