First written in 2013 and still feeling the same.
Parenting is hard!!! Can I get an AMEN!!! I am humbled daily by my children … or my ability to parent them. Many days, I feel as though I’m failing (or inadequate) at being a “good” mom. Oddly, on the flip side, I struggle with serious pride issues as well. I think that if my kids do not act perfectly around others, that it’s a reflection on me. And, I find myself more worried about what others think than what God thinks. Oh my. Is that really what I am doing?!? All this results in me constantly being on them.
What message am I sending? Do my kids have to earn love and acceptance from mom and dad? At first glimpse I say “Of course not” but if I really look at my actions and speech, I have to question it. Am I teaching a warped view of love (based on conditions)? Will they grow up believing that to be loved by anyone (including God), they must earn it? “I’m not good enough… I have to be better” – Is this the message they are receiving? Double Yikes!! Is this how I got this message!?! Is this why so many of us have a hard time understanding what Love really is… because this is how the world loves?
If you have more than one child, chances are, at least one of them is your challenger, knows how to push those buttons and can bring out the worst in you. Wow, who knew that anger was in there!!!
My firstborn, bless him, is my challenge. I call him my little “character builder.” I’m really hard on him. Why is that? Three things come to mind.
He is my first
He is a lot like me
I see his potential
There is so much inner conflict and turmoil going on because on one hand I have this frustration for him to be a certain way, but on the other hand, there’s guilt because of the condemnation he is constantly receiving from me.
I went for my jog. My “character builder” was on my heart and I was desperate for some wisdom. God spoke and this is what I heard.
“I gave you your kids. Let them be who I’ve created them to be, not what you think they should be. They are for my glory, not yours.”
Wow, talk about revelation. I am a transparent person, but until now, not in this area. I have been so prideful. I want to appear as if I have all the answers, and perfect children. Why? So I can be praised for my abilities. Truth Hurts.
No wonder I’m stressed, confused and overwhelmed. I’m working in my own flesh and my priorities are all wrong. I’ve had 6 (now 12) years of habitual responses and a lifetime of mindsets to break. I CHOOSE to lose all pretenses, humble myself before everyone, and admit that I have no ability without His Spirit moving through me.
I must raise my children for God’s Glory. Then and only then, will I become a parent to be praised.
See below for personal application.
Application: Does any of this ring true to you? I think we can all say it does to an extent. How do we change?
1) Take responsibility. Are you humble or prideful in your parenting?
Proverbs 11:2 When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with the humble is wisdom.
2) Identify your dialogue. What do your children hear from you (vice or virtue, negative or positive, what they should not be doing or what they should be doing? Proverbs 18:21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.
3) Recognize your motive. In your discipline, are you doing it out of anger and embarrassment, or a true desire to soften their heart for the Lord?
Ezekiel 36:26 And I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart.
4) Look to the Creator. He is love and will give and teach us all we need.
The Love Chapter – 1 Cor 13.
We need to parent our children the same way God parents us – Unconditionally – grace freely given no matter what. Let me clarify, I do not mean do not correct your child (spare the rod, spoil the child – Prov 13:24). But just as God corrects by allowing consequences, his love (heart attitude) is unchanging no matter our actions. It is constant.
5) Parent according to the Word. Learn what the bible says. Teach them and fill their life with the gospel . Live out the gospel in front of them: Forgive others, ask for forgiveness, give grace, discipline out of love and not anger.
Deuteronomy 11:18-21 Fix these words of mine in your hearts and minds; … Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates, so that your days and the days of your children may be many …
6) Take the lie of failure or inadequacy captive. I must CHOOSE to live by the Truth, come to Him in complete humility and know that it’s possible only by God’s grace.
2 Corinthians 10:5 We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ,
I CHOOSE to break this cycle – I CHOOSE to show my children my faults and how I ask for forgiveness from God as well as from them. I CHOOSE to believe and teach the gospel (that God loves me unconditionally) and try my best to live it out in front of them daily. And I CHOOSE to believe that we (and especially our children) are all covered by God’s grace when we fail (1 Peter 4:8). I CHOOSE to allow God to parent through me.
Then and only then, will I become a parent to be praised.